These last few days I've finally come to understand the desperation people describe in life with a newborn. These last few days Matilda has been, how you say, a royal pain in the behind. If she's awake, she's screaming. If she's screaming, I'm pulling up my shirt. It's a Pavlovian response at this stage. Nursing is the only thing that shuts her up because, as I've said before, it's hard to scream with a nipple in your mouth.
Because the nursing works, I don't think she's got colic. Colic is described as three or more hours a day of screaming that nothing fixes for three or more weeks. CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT? I'm trying not to think about it.
Other things I'm trying not to think about with varying degrees of success:
Breastfeeding. It's fairly standard for breastfeeding mothers to feel their milk let-down and have a use for breast pads. I don't feel it and I don't need them. I'm not sure what the standard is for pumping quantities, but I know I'm way below it. Yesterday morning I was able to pump 3 ounces. I was joyous over that amount as I've never gotten more than 2 ounces before. This worries me greatly as I'm going to need to go back to work and how am I supposed to pump enough to keep this kid in dairy? This worries me less as Matilda spends the majority of both her awake and sleeping times nursing. Is it really any wonder I can't pump quarts?
Her soft spot. There's nothing wrong with it. Believe me. I actually opened What To Expect The First Year to make sure that PULSATING SOFT SPOT is normal. It is. But it still freaks me out. One of her favorite things (it's a short list) is being held to our chests and bounced on the yoga ball. She requires vigorous bouncing and if one were to look at her soft spot while bouncing her, one might happen to see it moving up and down to the rhythm. *can't look*
Our TV. It still doesn't work. We're currently waiting for a part to come in so the repairman from Best Buy can come back out and tell us the part in question isn't the problem.
Baby "advice" from passing strangers. Mostly its been "Oh! She's so cute! She must be hungry!" You know because she's crying. Best one to date was as we were leaving the rest room in a museum. Woman behind me said, "Maybe she has diaper rash!" What the. THANKS FOR PLAYING.
